This actually doesn't deserve an update or even a post.
Since making this, in my opinion, rather heavy decision of active celibacy I have been sick. Not sniffles and uncomfortable sick. Laid out for 3 days, coughing so hard I pull muscles and wake myself up, and 10 days later still not totally well sick!
It was awful. First I'm horrible at being sick. When I feel like I should stay in bed all day I convince myself I'm being overdramatic and that I should really just suck it up and get on with life. Then when, in fact, I should have just stayed in bed, didn't, and then feel extra crappy I get annoyed. I'm just cranky when I'm sick.
Anyway, I have decided rather than assuming that this was the world telling me that closing for business is a horrible idea and keeping me sick until I retract, that it actually is the universe agreeing with me and purging the last year-ish of ick and helping me to start this year and decade fresh. Yeah we'll go with that.
No, it did not cross my mind that this illness was just that and not the universe trying to give me a deep and poignant message, why do you ask?
Since making this, in my opinion, rather heavy decision of active celibacy I have been sick. Not sniffles and uncomfortable sick. Laid out for 3 days, coughing so hard I pull muscles and wake myself up, and 10 days later still not totally well sick!
It was awful. First I'm horrible at being sick. When I feel like I should stay in bed all day I convince myself I'm being overdramatic and that I should really just suck it up and get on with life. Then when, in fact, I should have just stayed in bed, didn't, and then feel extra crappy I get annoyed. I'm just cranky when I'm sick.
Anyway, I have decided rather than assuming that this was the world telling me that closing for business is a horrible idea and keeping me sick until I retract, that it actually is the universe agreeing with me and purging the last year-ish of ick and helping me to start this year and decade fresh. Yeah we'll go with that.
No, it did not cross my mind that this illness was just that and not the universe trying to give me a deep and poignant message, why do you ask?
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